Thanksgiving, 2005
Marriage recordS/P.W. ELVERUM & SUN, LTD.
Essences
Around The World
Thanksgiving
Fuck The World
Welcome Home Human
Dead Deer & Other Animals
In The Woods
Will You Bear My Dreams?/ Let Them, Give Up
You Don’t Know Me/Alone In The World
Thanksgiving
I Am Yours
The "In The Redwoods"
Remembering
I Know Who You Are
I Am Yours (Radio Version)
Welcome Nowhere
Stay In Spring Field
You Say "We're Alone"
What Do You Want Now, Human?
Building My House
Black Paintings
Oregon
New Morning
Old Only to be New Again
Essences
(Instrumental)
Around The World
Everything is given, nothing is due to you
And you know that what you know
Is only ever what you’ve been shown
Worry, fear and anguish around the world
God knows I’ve seen it consume our hearts,
Chase them in caves and dig in graves, the dust
We’re doomed just like a dragon
It’s all for nothing, we’re on our own, all alone
But I’ve seen the streaks of clarity in the raindrops, through the frost
And I’ve seen you bend your will dude like the river around the rocks
And in the world, the sky has always held you found and lost,
Where you can sing your new song, your blue jay song, your rooster cuckoo
And you will have the dignity of the dragon breathing fire
Where you will have your new voice
Go higher
God knows you’re grateful to be alive
Thanksgiving
My gratitude dies when I don’t believe
That anything’s good or that I am free
From hating, and fearing, and loving needingly
And then comes the death of my dreams
When I don’t believe I could even sing
Like a fragile flower, my voice can not grow
On the rock of my heart, out of my soul so cold
But with a barreled chest, I proudly announce
Meaningless words of the troubles I’ve found
And my best friends look down at my loudest request
To be understood, or just for their attention
And I long only for bliss, while giving none of it
But on days when I see that most people do this
Like a miracle
Fuck The World
Fuck the world,
Just being in it
Fuck the world
When the sun sets,
It’s beautiful
Fuck the world
Welcome Home Human
(Instrumental)
Dead Deer & Other Animals
That deer’s a pile of guts and bones
No one could pull her off the road
Her stillest eyes, they still look bright
I’m always glad to give a smile
So look at me with her
Look at me over here
The sky, she has her hands open
And now she takes me as I stand
Hold on to me with her, all the world,
And make me a man
The vultures always want to eat
And as I die, they’re circling
So come and join the feast, all the world
Come and join the feast (and eat me)
Oh bats, who flap amongst the black,
To thee, I sing in these dead nights
You don’t take fault in your way of life
Or in your fangs which now, for blood, will bite
You were born with them
You were born good at "make die"
And listen in with them, cruel world
Listen in with them,
In the way that they know
In The Woods
In the woods, in the woods
Let's go in the woods, in our hood
Under our hoods, let’s go rustling
'Cause if the world doesn't want us
We can find somewhere that does
And go meet the thing that haunts us
Far away from all our fears
Let's go
Let us go
There's no bars to squeeze and scream in the woods,
In the woods, let's go sleep
To the future we remember and away from our endeavors
Come the cowards and the brave,
Come the cowboys and the braves
And let's die running if we're enslaved
Let's go
Let us go
There's no bars to hold us now in the woods
In the woods, we know how
And though our blood may flow out quickly
From our cold feet to snow or stream
At least when we die it won't be
Too far to fall before the scary vultures see
Our bones blow away between the trees
Will You Bear My Dreams?/Let Them, Give Up
Will you bear my dreams now?
Will you bear with me?
You have heard my nonsense
You have been my witness, my conscience
I give up, I give in
Now I’m generous, I’m overcome
Let me swim out from this shipwreck
And watch my good ol’ girl sink
See the monsters in the distance
Beneath their raft, the fragile world recoils
But let them rage
Let them, I say
Let them waste
Let them erase
Let them rampage
You Don’t Know Me/Alone In The World
Do you know where I come from?
No you don’t
And why should you? How could you?
I won’t even try to tell you
But oh, I’m so alone,
Bonded to you, world
Oh, boys and girls, women and men,
To what are we belonging?
To each other as lovers?
Together, remember
We will desperately do wrong
And be judged by the sun, his holy good,
The whole day long
Oh, we are fucked
We are fucked up
We are fucked down
And fucked around
We are allowed
Thanksgiving
All I ever mean to say is what there's no words to explain
And all I ever mean to sing is what's burning inside of me
And all I ever meant to do is be grateful, good, and true to you
'Cause all there ever are to blame are victims themselves, just the same
And all there ever are to praise are those favored by light and grace
So all pure eyes, give me your ears to hear my wailing, plain and clear
I hope only that my lonely song will echo somehow everyone's
I Am Yours
Your song is the bay
My songs are the oars
Your song is the wind
Mine are blowing bones
Your song is the waves
My songs are driftwood
Your song is the moon
Mine are windowsills
Your song is black dead of night
My songs are shadows
Your song is the truth
But mine, I’m selling to you
The "In The Redwoods"
You always used to drag your hair
In the forest, through the moss and twigs
I went walking in the redwoods
And I made my way yours
I declare that we magically,
Falling asleep to the soft raindrops
And in the morning, waking up
When the warm wind is blowing through the tree
We can’t see it,
Only hear the rush
Remembering
Should I stop and face the thing
That caught my eye and pulled it back to memories?
Should I stop and trudge onward
And deny its order to send me backwards?
If I face the mystery
It vaporously flees like a ghost
Can I find it in my life
To look before me and not to what dies for my love?
I Know Who You Are
When your life is over and from my life, you’re gone
And you’re just like a sail on the clouds at dawn
And you say: “I know who you are”
And when I’m alone, crying on some summer day
Will you send a breeze upon me and if you can, please say:
“I know who you are”
I Am Yours (Radio Version)
I am yours
How can I say more?
I am yours
I am yours
When I come to your house,
I am yours
I don't always know
I am yours
There's ghosts all around
I am yours
I am not alone
I am yours
I am yours
I am yours
And that doesn't mean that you own me
I am yours
But don't you always hold me
I am yours
My soul in the air
I can see my own breath
I am yours
In the sunlight
I am yours
I am yours
And in the dead of night, I am yours
I am yours
I'm filled with your life
I am yours
I'm filled with your size
I am yours
So do what you want
I am yours
With whatever I am and what I've got
I am yours
Take what you will
I am yours
I am your story
I am yours
I am your blurry dreams
I am yours
Remember me
Welcome Nowhere
I went to see the mountain’s face,
Shrouded in clouds and made of grace
And mother, who is made of air,
Welcomed me in, nowhere
The sky, her mouth, came to surround me
In its snow-white down
And silence poured from black of space
To the black ground and in black caves
Stay In Spring Field
If you’re getting pulled away from your sheltered place,
Tell the cold wind: “No”
‘Cause nothing can proclaim any better way
For you to call your own
Than the one you know, there’s no other hope,
There’s no other home
And if you want to travel around, do it in your frown
Crawl through all your bones
‘Cause there’s no eternal spring and the new blossoms will die
Like a first or faithless love
Don’t go off with that prince and forsake your good husband
Your babies will grow old
And there’s no greener grass for you to find, at last
There’s no grand reward
There’s no true romance, there’s no flowery dance
The wind won’t blow away
The magic will run dry, you’ll think it all a lie
At the coming of the next day
Despair will echo on
But here’s the boring love your heart as always known
Here’s the sing along:
“Here’s where we belong”
You Say "We're Alone"
You say: “We're alone”
Every one of us
You say: “We're alone”
Everybody else
You say: “We're alone”
Every part of us
You say: “We're alone”
Every molecule
You say: “We're alone”
Everything we do
You say: “We're alone”
And go through
You say: “We're alone”
Every grain of sand
You say: “We're alone”
Every blade of grass
You say: “We're alone”
Almost everything
You say: “We're alone”
And its deafening
What Do You Want Now, Human?
Out of desperation, I did what I did
I went away, I came out of it
To family and friends, I said “Goodbye, you guys”
Humans, I don’t believe your shit, not one bit
Now I’m alienated and we shed our dead skin
For the innocent life which now
Building My House
With naïve eyes open wide,
I look up at the sky with you
But held inside the vastness,
I soon feel alone, and empty too
A skeleton walking through sand
My bones are smooth like ocean rocks
I’ve been in this business so long
On the 8-Track, I hang my mask
I’ve been in this desert so long
Is there a shade ‘neath that sage brush?
I’ve been in this world so long
I smell the times I climbed the trees
I want to count my memories
And never forget anything
Is there a homecoming for me,
The one where I dreamed of staying?
No, but your name is what my home is made of
And a dream is what my home will become
Building my house with a mouse
In a fluttering tree top
Black Paintings
If I'm wrong in your eyes, oh judges,
I know most of us are counting
Then let me bow and explain myself of course,
If you're on earth, you'll listen
The moments of my life are the songs I would write
They are so beautiful
But I've tried and now I try to hold them and I can't,
And always couldn't
So may I be gone from your sight?
Let no one, but no one may steal the magic
No well of silence
Somewhere find, listen in, close your eyes and imagine
That this is the black sky at night, where through the fog,
I found the star and smelled the air
And this is all put together and played on top of each other
All of my songs, all my failures
Oregon
Let me turn to a cloud with my head held down to the ground
Let me see through the crowd of needs and wants that I have
Let me know that I am best for the life I’ve been given,
That there is no one else who’d be better at living it
Though rejected and tested, no longer strong and sturdy
Let me know I belong here with the silence next to me
Let me know I belong here, and believe it truly,
As a fog or a mist wrapping around the hill,
A few implied questions, from mystery, will
New Morning
The time comes to empty my mind,
To make room for all of the new inspirations
The morning comes, no matter if you are awake or if you are sleeping
We’ve made it through another night,
Now I can’t stand to see your stomach empty
Oh rise, arise and meet the day
With great delight, you’ll notice it’s a new one
How glorious, how clear it is
There’s no shadow to carve into the land, serene
Except the absence the dark made
Now what was black is glaring bright and gaping wide
But the world can’t hide in its cave-hood forever
We will see its cloak turn into skin
So clear my thoughts before they arrive
And take my fate from the ply of horizons
This world will be, to my mind,
As clothes are to a baby’s bare behind
Old Only to be New Again
Here’s no bad news that’s unsettling
And here is no unexpected death
And I will stay here long enough
Just to be new again
This trusting stranger pulls my love to him
And it goes on to me, the whole world
This black bear chases me out to meet the squirrels
This bright warm sun shows my face as golden
I cut my hair into the wind
Around The World
Thanksgiving
Fuck The World
Welcome Home Human
Dead Deer & Other Animals
In The Woods
Will You Bear My Dreams?/ Let Them, Give Up
You Don’t Know Me/Alone In The World
Thanksgiving
I Am Yours
The "In The Redwoods"
Remembering
I Know Who You Are
I Am Yours (Radio Version)
Welcome Nowhere
Stay In Spring Field
You Say "We're Alone"
What Do You Want Now, Human?
Building My House
Black Paintings
Oregon
New Morning
Old Only to be New Again
Essences
(Instrumental)
Around The World
Everything is given, nothing is due to you
And you know that what you know
Is only ever what you’ve been shown
Worry, fear and anguish around the world
God knows I’ve seen it consume our hearts,
Chase them in caves and dig in graves, the dust
We’re doomed just like a dragon
It’s all for nothing, we’re on our own, all alone
But I’ve seen the streaks of clarity in the raindrops, through the frost
And I’ve seen you bend your will dude like the river around the rocks
And in the world, the sky has always held you found and lost,
Where you can sing your new song, your blue jay song, your rooster cuckoo
And you will have the dignity of the dragon breathing fire
Where you will have your new voice
Go higher
God knows you’re grateful to be alive
Thanksgiving
My gratitude dies when I don’t believe
That anything’s good or that I am free
From hating, and fearing, and loving needingly
And then comes the death of my dreams
When I don’t believe I could even sing
Like a fragile flower, my voice can not grow
On the rock of my heart, out of my soul so cold
But with a barreled chest, I proudly announce
Meaningless words of the troubles I’ve found
And my best friends look down at my loudest request
To be understood, or just for their attention
And I long only for bliss, while giving none of it
But on days when I see that most people do this
Like a miracle
Fuck The World
Fuck the world,
Just being in it
Fuck the world
When the sun sets,
It’s beautiful
Fuck the world
Welcome Home Human
(Instrumental)
Dead Deer & Other Animals
That deer’s a pile of guts and bones
No one could pull her off the road
Her stillest eyes, they still look bright
I’m always glad to give a smile
So look at me with her
Look at me over here
The sky, she has her hands open
And now she takes me as I stand
Hold on to me with her, all the world,
And make me a man
The vultures always want to eat
And as I die, they’re circling
So come and join the feast, all the world
Come and join the feast (and eat me)
Oh bats, who flap amongst the black,
To thee, I sing in these dead nights
You don’t take fault in your way of life
Or in your fangs which now, for blood, will bite
You were born with them
You were born good at "make die"
And listen in with them, cruel world
Listen in with them,
In the way that they know
In The Woods
In the woods, in the woods
Let's go in the woods, in our hood
Under our hoods, let’s go rustling
'Cause if the world doesn't want us
We can find somewhere that does
And go meet the thing that haunts us
Far away from all our fears
Let's go
Let us go
There's no bars to squeeze and scream in the woods,
In the woods, let's go sleep
To the future we remember and away from our endeavors
Come the cowards and the brave,
Come the cowboys and the braves
And let's die running if we're enslaved
Let's go
Let us go
There's no bars to hold us now in the woods
In the woods, we know how
And though our blood may flow out quickly
From our cold feet to snow or stream
At least when we die it won't be
Too far to fall before the scary vultures see
Our bones blow away between the trees
Will You Bear My Dreams?/Let Them, Give Up
Will you bear my dreams now?
Will you bear with me?
You have heard my nonsense
You have been my witness, my conscience
I give up, I give in
Now I’m generous, I’m overcome
Let me swim out from this shipwreck
And watch my good ol’ girl sink
See the monsters in the distance
Beneath their raft, the fragile world recoils
But let them rage
Let them, I say
Let them waste
Let them erase
Let them rampage
You Don’t Know Me/Alone In The World
Do you know where I come from?
No you don’t
And why should you? How could you?
I won’t even try to tell you
But oh, I’m so alone,
Bonded to you, world
Oh, boys and girls, women and men,
To what are we belonging?
To each other as lovers?
Together, remember
We will desperately do wrong
And be judged by the sun, his holy good,
The whole day long
Oh, we are fucked
We are fucked up
We are fucked down
And fucked around
We are allowed
Thanksgiving
All I ever mean to say is what there's no words to explain
And all I ever mean to sing is what's burning inside of me
And all I ever meant to do is be grateful, good, and true to you
'Cause all there ever are to blame are victims themselves, just the same
And all there ever are to praise are those favored by light and grace
So all pure eyes, give me your ears to hear my wailing, plain and clear
I hope only that my lonely song will echo somehow everyone's
I Am Yours
Your song is the bay
My songs are the oars
Your song is the wind
Mine are blowing bones
Your song is the waves
My songs are driftwood
Your song is the moon
Mine are windowsills
Your song is black dead of night
My songs are shadows
Your song is the truth
But mine, I’m selling to you
The "In The Redwoods"
You always used to drag your hair
In the forest, through the moss and twigs
I went walking in the redwoods
And I made my way yours
I declare that we magically,
Falling asleep to the soft raindrops
And in the morning, waking up
When the warm wind is blowing through the tree
We can’t see it,
Only hear the rush
Remembering
Should I stop and face the thing
That caught my eye and pulled it back to memories?
Should I stop and trudge onward
And deny its order to send me backwards?
If I face the mystery
It vaporously flees like a ghost
Can I find it in my life
To look before me and not to what dies for my love?
I Know Who You Are
When your life is over and from my life, you’re gone
And you’re just like a sail on the clouds at dawn
And you say: “I know who you are”
And when I’m alone, crying on some summer day
Will you send a breeze upon me and if you can, please say:
“I know who you are”
I Am Yours (Radio Version)
I am yours
How can I say more?
I am yours
I am yours
When I come to your house,
I am yours
I don't always know
I am yours
There's ghosts all around
I am yours
I am not alone
I am yours
I am yours
I am yours
And that doesn't mean that you own me
I am yours
But don't you always hold me
I am yours
My soul in the air
I can see my own breath
I am yours
In the sunlight
I am yours
I am yours
And in the dead of night, I am yours
I am yours
I'm filled with your life
I am yours
I'm filled with your size
I am yours
So do what you want
I am yours
With whatever I am and what I've got
I am yours
Take what you will
I am yours
I am your story
I am yours
I am your blurry dreams
I am yours
Remember me
Welcome Nowhere
I went to see the mountain’s face,
Shrouded in clouds and made of grace
And mother, who is made of air,
Welcomed me in, nowhere
The sky, her mouth, came to surround me
In its snow-white down
And silence poured from black of space
To the black ground and in black caves
Stay In Spring Field
If you’re getting pulled away from your sheltered place,
Tell the cold wind: “No”
‘Cause nothing can proclaim any better way
For you to call your own
Than the one you know, there’s no other hope,
There’s no other home
And if you want to travel around, do it in your frown
Crawl through all your bones
‘Cause there’s no eternal spring and the new blossoms will die
Like a first or faithless love
Don’t go off with that prince and forsake your good husband
Your babies will grow old
And there’s no greener grass for you to find, at last
There’s no grand reward
There’s no true romance, there’s no flowery dance
The wind won’t blow away
The magic will run dry, you’ll think it all a lie
At the coming of the next day
Despair will echo on
But here’s the boring love your heart as always known
Here’s the sing along:
“Here’s where we belong”
You Say "We're Alone"
You say: “We're alone”
Every one of us
You say: “We're alone”
Everybody else
You say: “We're alone”
Every part of us
You say: “We're alone”
Every molecule
You say: “We're alone”
Everything we do
You say: “We're alone”
And go through
You say: “We're alone”
Every grain of sand
You say: “We're alone”
Every blade of grass
You say: “We're alone”
Almost everything
You say: “We're alone”
And its deafening
What Do You Want Now, Human?
Out of desperation, I did what I did
I went away, I came out of it
To family and friends, I said “Goodbye, you guys”
Humans, I don’t believe your shit, not one bit
Now I’m alienated and we shed our dead skin
For the innocent life which now
Building My House
With naïve eyes open wide,
I look up at the sky with you
But held inside the vastness,
I soon feel alone, and empty too
A skeleton walking through sand
My bones are smooth like ocean rocks
I’ve been in this business so long
On the 8-Track, I hang my mask
I’ve been in this desert so long
Is there a shade ‘neath that sage brush?
I’ve been in this world so long
I smell the times I climbed the trees
I want to count my memories
And never forget anything
Is there a homecoming for me,
The one where I dreamed of staying?
No, but your name is what my home is made of
And a dream is what my home will become
Building my house with a mouse
In a fluttering tree top
Black Paintings
If I'm wrong in your eyes, oh judges,
I know most of us are counting
Then let me bow and explain myself of course,
If you're on earth, you'll listen
The moments of my life are the songs I would write
They are so beautiful
But I've tried and now I try to hold them and I can't,
And always couldn't
So may I be gone from your sight?
Let no one, but no one may steal the magic
No well of silence
Somewhere find, listen in, close your eyes and imagine
That this is the black sky at night, where through the fog,
I found the star and smelled the air
And this is all put together and played on top of each other
All of my songs, all my failures
Oregon
Let me turn to a cloud with my head held down to the ground
Let me see through the crowd of needs and wants that I have
Let me know that I am best for the life I’ve been given,
That there is no one else who’d be better at living it
Though rejected and tested, no longer strong and sturdy
Let me know I belong here with the silence next to me
Let me know I belong here, and believe it truly,
As a fog or a mist wrapping around the hill,
A few implied questions, from mystery, will
New Morning
The time comes to empty my mind,
To make room for all of the new inspirations
The morning comes, no matter if you are awake or if you are sleeping
We’ve made it through another night,
Now I can’t stand to see your stomach empty
Oh rise, arise and meet the day
With great delight, you’ll notice it’s a new one
How glorious, how clear it is
There’s no shadow to carve into the land, serene
Except the absence the dark made
Now what was black is glaring bright and gaping wide
But the world can’t hide in its cave-hood forever
We will see its cloak turn into skin
So clear my thoughts before they arrive
And take my fate from the ply of horizons
This world will be, to my mind,
As clothes are to a baby’s bare behind
Old Only to be New Again
Here’s no bad news that’s unsettling
And here is no unexpected death
And I will stay here long enough
Just to be new again
This trusting stranger pulls my love to him
And it goes on to me, the whole world
This black bear chases me out to meet the squirrels
This bright warm sun shows my face as golden
I cut my hair into the wind