Miscellaneous
Compilation Tracks, Rarities and Live Songs
Grandfather Dawn
Eidolons
99 Cents Bag Of Chips 1
99 Cents Bag Of Chips 2
SONG
Growing Up
Money Equals Dracula (Live)
Auntarctica (Alternate Live Version)
Our Love Ain’t No Secret (Live)
It Wasn’t True (Live)
In The Cavez of Night
Weird Negative Shit (Live)
It Ain’t Me Baby
Give to Love What’s Love’s (Alternate Live Version)
Question Love Answer (Alternate Live Version)
Grandfather Dawn
Own Zone: A States Rights Records Compilation, 2004
States Rights Records
My grandpa lives in Arizona
He’s lived there since before I was born
It’s because it’s warmer there
Than in Oregon
And he came up to visit once
I don’t know if he’d remember me
And I don’t ‘member him too much
Except that Dawn’s his name
And that before we were introduced
He looked at me so confused
Eidolons
What the Heck Fest Compiltation, 2004
KNW-YR-OWN Records
In the land, there’s a sound
Just like my thoughts of you
Behind the cloud, there’s a sound
That’s just like a part of you
In the air, all around
There’s a sound of my love of you
99 Cents Bag Of Chips, Part 1
Bro Zone: States Rights Compilation, 2005
States Rights Records
There’s a piece of trash
On my freeway overpass
Shining in the sun in the August
I guess it is a Doritos bag
99 Cents Bag Of Chips, Part 2 (live)
Windows, with the clouds in them,
While the sun sets
Walking home again
While the sun sets
SONG
Flotsam-N-Jetsam: What-The-Heckfest Compilation, 2005
Kelp Monthly #19
My hands turn to mice, my watery eyes sway
My bones melted inside me and I closed my anvil eyelids
I didn’t even want to come in and my ears rang in the room
When the drums and trumpets played to my entrance,
Saying "Boy you look homeless and you look useless
What are you doing here?"
But useless I am not and I can use what I’ve got
And I threw her all around with my voice
Then she joined in with me,
I swear, almost killed me and would have probably
If the kids weren’t listening
Growing Up
Is Orange Birds: 1st Marriage Records Compilation, 2005
Marriage Records
Before you know it
Your life will become mundane
Abandoning appreciation
Of itself in a magic way
The way you used to look at things
Before you’d seen them all before
The way you weren’t then so proud
And how you didn’t talk so loud
But your lungs have become stone walls
Around the gasps you take before
Your heart sings in the blue love
The new moment that’s coming for you
Money Equals Dracula, 2005 (live)
There’s nothing unsaid to say, so need for a sayer
There is no more food to eat, so I’ll just stop eating
There is no more room to fill, so no need for a tenant
And there’s no beauty, here, to see unless you like to be transcended
Dracula says:
“Yeah, but living here is up to you
How do you choose to prove your worth?
Will you get a job or go to school?
Or start a band and push CD’s?
Or learn to design ads independently?”
No, I’ll make my way in my own good way,
As you give no trail to follow except the path to hell
And I won’t go, I won’t be had anymore
Your world is very dead to me and it’s not a life I see you leading
Walking through the dark, cold night
I might feel a pull of something warm
But then, tasting it, I know it’s the last blood let from your own dead fangs
Feeding off yourself, you thought that you could die eternally
But you have crushed your own last hope
And your evil won’t hide any truth any more
‘Cause I’ll make my way in my own good way,
As you give no trail to follow except the path to hell
And I won’t go, I won’t be had anymore
Dracula says:
“Yeah, but I have you, and you’re all mine
Just look at how quick you’re dying
Now your friends will lie for you
But all your necks are marked with bites”
Auntarctica, 2005 (Alternate Live Version)
My aunt got a boat ride to Antarctica
And chased those black and white penguins back onto its ice
Honey, I just ran from that house, I just up and left all my stuff
My aunt’s got a van and we got up off this porch
And I cannot rent a U-haul and I can’t rent a rental car
'Cause my license is expired and I’ve got just thirteen bucks
And I’ve got no credit card and I’m under twenty-five
And my aunt’s got a van, so I’m going to catch that Greyhound bus
And go and see my aunt in Indianapolis
The winter air in between the icicles and dead trees,
Where the blackbirds are calling and the freezing rain is falling,
It's the same place that holds me while I shuffle on the concrete,
While I’m walking to the depot
I don’t want nothing no more
Through the road's wise oracle, let me see that time has no hold
Our Love Ain’t No Secret, 2006 (live)
It’s like reading aloud on the airplane
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like kissing in the park with both our shirts off
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like when the park turns out to be that strip of grass along the sidewalk
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like setting up a full-blown picnic in somebody else's yard
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like painting cursive, affectionate “fuck you’s” on the blank courthouse walls
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
That pink spray paint is pretty hard to get off the bricks
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like talking to your friend about your feelings
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like listening to your friends when they’ve got something to tell you
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like singing along with the band at the show
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like singing along, just as loud as you can, at Jason Anderson’s house
It Wasn’t True, 2006 (live)
When I said I was a new man, it wasn’t true
And when I said that it changed my life, it wasn’t true
And even when I said that I was sure that I knew that it wasn’t true
It wasn’t true
When you said that I was special, it wasn’t true
When you said that you understood and loved me, it wasn’t true
And anything we said when we was drunk, on drugs, or half dead
It wasn’t true
But when we say we’re old friends, I know it’s true
It’s true that you know me, and I know you
And since the bygones are all gone, there’s nothing to rely on
Besides what we decide to do until tomorrow comes
And we’ll be lucky if it even does but if it even does,
I’m going to sing, “Tomorrow came, how fucking cool!”
And it spreads across our town, it always has
I thought it would, tomorrow comes
It comes around
Tomorrow comes, you know it will
Things look different in the morning
And that’s pretty awesome
Things look pretty beautiful
In The Cavez of Night
Four Band Split EP with Mt. Eerie, Sneakypine & Belly Boat, 2006
Stop Drop Records
No one will glorify me now
One step ahead, I sent them back
With their own legs still pulling at them
And I am glad that no one knows
If what’s inside of me is gold
No one will glorify me now
Or say I’m too pure for the world
And with my childhood pulled back
My hair has known this winter’s wind
I may not ever find a hat
To make me that warm again
Weird Negative Shit, 2006 (live)
I don’t want to talk in weird circles about weird negative shit
Or to add a shadow to the night with a song
Now, I mean to stir the fire of our life
So the world will show warmth as our warm light grows
Like the dawn spreading across the kingdom
Slowly opening my eyes in the morning
So an unfortunate incident is cause for thankfulness
And no loss, or debt of self, will be erased by status
Ambivalent to every battle and each war
I don’t want a leg up in this sinking boat
No, I’d rather slow down and watch
I’d rather walk in the rain while your cars rush
Throw a rock at my window if you need me
I’ll be laying amazed at how fast your letters have come
And I know it’s everyman for herself out there
So if you finally decide to desert the war of the worlds
And you finally come home, then I can only hope
That I can have some good dinner prepared
So marooned on this island of my mind,
I am planting a garden for next year
And it grows as slow as my days go
And it’s like I live in the pause between breathes when I know
Just how I love you
And this is the longest and most beautiful springtime I’ve known
And there’s no desperation in my lack of a cellphone
‘Cause I cherish my boredom in my cloud that is so soft
And I’m ready to die but I’m not
I’m alive
It Ain’t Me Baby
The Second Marriage Records Compilation, 2007
Marriage Records
It’s how you dream, be that as it may
And not what’s dreamt which will say
What your aimless way means
And what you see, that’s what you have,
Plus feelings like a map to find the treasured day
Baby, it ain’t me
That’s gonna’ give you what you need
Baby, I’m just a thing
When there’s three birds and two go off alone
The left one wonders what’s right under his nose
He’s looking and darting all around
And off he flaps into the air and maybe comes back down
When I heard your voice behind the house,
My body leaned down toward the ground
I was immersed in that sound
I tripped and fell down in the muddy grass
So hence the grubbiness beholden to me now
When I saw your rosy cheeks in the wet air after the rain,
Damn, oh my god, gosh dang
Weak in the knees and all my butterflies free
I asked my lips to ask my tongue for me to act with grace
Baby, it ain’t me that you need
Give to Love What’s Love’s (Alternate Live Version)
If you can’t find something to learn from here
Then remember that there’s more here than meets the eye
But there’s no lack of lessons if you open your mind
If you let yourself learn them
You will understand if you let yourself feel them
You will understand if you let yourself see them
You will understand if you let yourself hear them
They’re lessons to which you’re blind
Well, there’s no cause for celebration
If you’re living in the U.S.A.
But there’s a lot of work to get done
And not enough hours in the winter’s day
We have to give away our love
You know we’ll be beloved if we give away our love
Before we die of wanting more
And we have to give away our stuff
We will receive much if we give away our stuff
Before we die of wanting more
Well, if you are a Christian
And you believe life has a lesson
Well, I do too
I think we should stop learning it, don’t you?
Before we go up to heaven?
And if you are a nihilist
Who believes life is pointless
Well, I do too
But I don’t believe myself and I don’t believe you
I know you and me got feelings, too
Undeniable feelings
But really, I’m an agnostic
So I guess technically, I don’t really know
But if this really is another long-awaited apocalypse,
It’s just a step along our road
And we might as well give away our love
You know we’ll be beloved if we give away our love
Before we die of wanting more
Question Love Answer (Alternate Live Version)
So you think it makes no difference, whatever move you make
Hardly having an effect is just what they want you to think you’re doing
So that you’ll keep on living the life of excess that they let you
But you know you only need this much of what you carelessly leave
Unfairness and injustice are passing by all day
And I think they’re meant to remind us that being good’s a good thing
And if we’re lazy and we’re careless, let’s be unspoiled while we can
And maybe they’ll save the bullets in which they’ve written our names down
We’ve all enslaved ourselves, consider this if you dare;
You may say we have freedom but where is it? Where?
How often do you act on the knowledge buried and hid
Of what you know you should do, of what’s wrong and what’s good
Depending on the borders around your soul, where it’s been torn
You may have been enslaved inside one of six billion forms
But regardless of the reason and regardless of the rhyme
The great Spirit of love could sew your soul back to mine
The great Spirit of love could come to save your life
The great Spirit of love could come bearing good vibes
The spirit of rebellion, I hope, will come to save this day
But the great Spirit of love will stay
Eidolons
99 Cents Bag Of Chips 1
99 Cents Bag Of Chips 2
SONG
Growing Up
Money Equals Dracula (Live)
Auntarctica (Alternate Live Version)
Our Love Ain’t No Secret (Live)
It Wasn’t True (Live)
In The Cavez of Night
Weird Negative Shit (Live)
It Ain’t Me Baby
Give to Love What’s Love’s (Alternate Live Version)
Question Love Answer (Alternate Live Version)
Grandfather Dawn
Own Zone: A States Rights Records Compilation, 2004
States Rights Records
My grandpa lives in Arizona
He’s lived there since before I was born
It’s because it’s warmer there
Than in Oregon
And he came up to visit once
I don’t know if he’d remember me
And I don’t ‘member him too much
Except that Dawn’s his name
And that before we were introduced
He looked at me so confused
Eidolons
What the Heck Fest Compiltation, 2004
KNW-YR-OWN Records
In the land, there’s a sound
Just like my thoughts of you
Behind the cloud, there’s a sound
That’s just like a part of you
In the air, all around
There’s a sound of my love of you
99 Cents Bag Of Chips, Part 1
Bro Zone: States Rights Compilation, 2005
States Rights Records
There’s a piece of trash
On my freeway overpass
Shining in the sun in the August
I guess it is a Doritos bag
99 Cents Bag Of Chips, Part 2 (live)
Windows, with the clouds in them,
While the sun sets
Walking home again
While the sun sets
SONG
Flotsam-N-Jetsam: What-The-Heckfest Compilation, 2005
Kelp Monthly #19
My hands turn to mice, my watery eyes sway
My bones melted inside me and I closed my anvil eyelids
I didn’t even want to come in and my ears rang in the room
When the drums and trumpets played to my entrance,
Saying "Boy you look homeless and you look useless
What are you doing here?"
But useless I am not and I can use what I’ve got
And I threw her all around with my voice
Then she joined in with me,
I swear, almost killed me and would have probably
If the kids weren’t listening
Growing Up
Is Orange Birds: 1st Marriage Records Compilation, 2005
Marriage Records
Before you know it
Your life will become mundane
Abandoning appreciation
Of itself in a magic way
The way you used to look at things
Before you’d seen them all before
The way you weren’t then so proud
And how you didn’t talk so loud
But your lungs have become stone walls
Around the gasps you take before
Your heart sings in the blue love
The new moment that’s coming for you
Money Equals Dracula, 2005 (live)
There’s nothing unsaid to say, so need for a sayer
There is no more food to eat, so I’ll just stop eating
There is no more room to fill, so no need for a tenant
And there’s no beauty, here, to see unless you like to be transcended
Dracula says:
“Yeah, but living here is up to you
How do you choose to prove your worth?
Will you get a job or go to school?
Or start a band and push CD’s?
Or learn to design ads independently?”
No, I’ll make my way in my own good way,
As you give no trail to follow except the path to hell
And I won’t go, I won’t be had anymore
Your world is very dead to me and it’s not a life I see you leading
Walking through the dark, cold night
I might feel a pull of something warm
But then, tasting it, I know it’s the last blood let from your own dead fangs
Feeding off yourself, you thought that you could die eternally
But you have crushed your own last hope
And your evil won’t hide any truth any more
‘Cause I’ll make my way in my own good way,
As you give no trail to follow except the path to hell
And I won’t go, I won’t be had anymore
Dracula says:
“Yeah, but I have you, and you’re all mine
Just look at how quick you’re dying
Now your friends will lie for you
But all your necks are marked with bites”
Auntarctica, 2005 (Alternate Live Version)
My aunt got a boat ride to Antarctica
And chased those black and white penguins back onto its ice
Honey, I just ran from that house, I just up and left all my stuff
My aunt’s got a van and we got up off this porch
And I cannot rent a U-haul and I can’t rent a rental car
'Cause my license is expired and I’ve got just thirteen bucks
And I’ve got no credit card and I’m under twenty-five
And my aunt’s got a van, so I’m going to catch that Greyhound bus
And go and see my aunt in Indianapolis
The winter air in between the icicles and dead trees,
Where the blackbirds are calling and the freezing rain is falling,
It's the same place that holds me while I shuffle on the concrete,
While I’m walking to the depot
I don’t want nothing no more
Through the road's wise oracle, let me see that time has no hold
Our Love Ain’t No Secret, 2006 (live)
It’s like reading aloud on the airplane
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like kissing in the park with both our shirts off
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like when the park turns out to be that strip of grass along the sidewalk
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like setting up a full-blown picnic in somebody else's yard
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like painting cursive, affectionate “fuck you’s” on the blank courthouse walls
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
That pink spray paint is pretty hard to get off the bricks
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like talking to your friend about your feelings
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like listening to your friends when they’ve got something to tell you
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like singing along with the band at the show
Our love ain’t no secret, and our love can’t be wrong
It’s like singing along, just as loud as you can, at Jason Anderson’s house
It Wasn’t True, 2006 (live)
When I said I was a new man, it wasn’t true
And when I said that it changed my life, it wasn’t true
And even when I said that I was sure that I knew that it wasn’t true
It wasn’t true
When you said that I was special, it wasn’t true
When you said that you understood and loved me, it wasn’t true
And anything we said when we was drunk, on drugs, or half dead
It wasn’t true
But when we say we’re old friends, I know it’s true
It’s true that you know me, and I know you
And since the bygones are all gone, there’s nothing to rely on
Besides what we decide to do until tomorrow comes
And we’ll be lucky if it even does but if it even does,
I’m going to sing, “Tomorrow came, how fucking cool!”
And it spreads across our town, it always has
I thought it would, tomorrow comes
It comes around
Tomorrow comes, you know it will
Things look different in the morning
And that’s pretty awesome
Things look pretty beautiful
In The Cavez of Night
Four Band Split EP with Mt. Eerie, Sneakypine & Belly Boat, 2006
Stop Drop Records
No one will glorify me now
One step ahead, I sent them back
With their own legs still pulling at them
And I am glad that no one knows
If what’s inside of me is gold
No one will glorify me now
Or say I’m too pure for the world
And with my childhood pulled back
My hair has known this winter’s wind
I may not ever find a hat
To make me that warm again
Weird Negative Shit, 2006 (live)
I don’t want to talk in weird circles about weird negative shit
Or to add a shadow to the night with a song
Now, I mean to stir the fire of our life
So the world will show warmth as our warm light grows
Like the dawn spreading across the kingdom
Slowly opening my eyes in the morning
So an unfortunate incident is cause for thankfulness
And no loss, or debt of self, will be erased by status
Ambivalent to every battle and each war
I don’t want a leg up in this sinking boat
No, I’d rather slow down and watch
I’d rather walk in the rain while your cars rush
Throw a rock at my window if you need me
I’ll be laying amazed at how fast your letters have come
And I know it’s everyman for herself out there
So if you finally decide to desert the war of the worlds
And you finally come home, then I can only hope
That I can have some good dinner prepared
So marooned on this island of my mind,
I am planting a garden for next year
And it grows as slow as my days go
And it’s like I live in the pause between breathes when I know
Just how I love you
And this is the longest and most beautiful springtime I’ve known
And there’s no desperation in my lack of a cellphone
‘Cause I cherish my boredom in my cloud that is so soft
And I’m ready to die but I’m not
I’m alive
It Ain’t Me Baby
The Second Marriage Records Compilation, 2007
Marriage Records
It’s how you dream, be that as it may
And not what’s dreamt which will say
What your aimless way means
And what you see, that’s what you have,
Plus feelings like a map to find the treasured day
Baby, it ain’t me
That’s gonna’ give you what you need
Baby, I’m just a thing
When there’s three birds and two go off alone
The left one wonders what’s right under his nose
He’s looking and darting all around
And off he flaps into the air and maybe comes back down
When I heard your voice behind the house,
My body leaned down toward the ground
I was immersed in that sound
I tripped and fell down in the muddy grass
So hence the grubbiness beholden to me now
When I saw your rosy cheeks in the wet air after the rain,
Damn, oh my god, gosh dang
Weak in the knees and all my butterflies free
I asked my lips to ask my tongue for me to act with grace
Baby, it ain’t me that you need
Give to Love What’s Love’s (Alternate Live Version)
If you can’t find something to learn from here
Then remember that there’s more here than meets the eye
But there’s no lack of lessons if you open your mind
If you let yourself learn them
You will understand if you let yourself feel them
You will understand if you let yourself see them
You will understand if you let yourself hear them
They’re lessons to which you’re blind
Well, there’s no cause for celebration
If you’re living in the U.S.A.
But there’s a lot of work to get done
And not enough hours in the winter’s day
We have to give away our love
You know we’ll be beloved if we give away our love
Before we die of wanting more
And we have to give away our stuff
We will receive much if we give away our stuff
Before we die of wanting more
Well, if you are a Christian
And you believe life has a lesson
Well, I do too
I think we should stop learning it, don’t you?
Before we go up to heaven?
And if you are a nihilist
Who believes life is pointless
Well, I do too
But I don’t believe myself and I don’t believe you
I know you and me got feelings, too
Undeniable feelings
But really, I’m an agnostic
So I guess technically, I don’t really know
But if this really is another long-awaited apocalypse,
It’s just a step along our road
And we might as well give away our love
You know we’ll be beloved if we give away our love
Before we die of wanting more
Question Love Answer (Alternate Live Version)
So you think it makes no difference, whatever move you make
Hardly having an effect is just what they want you to think you’re doing
So that you’ll keep on living the life of excess that they let you
But you know you only need this much of what you carelessly leave
Unfairness and injustice are passing by all day
And I think they’re meant to remind us that being good’s a good thing
And if we’re lazy and we’re careless, let’s be unspoiled while we can
And maybe they’ll save the bullets in which they’ve written our names down
We’ve all enslaved ourselves, consider this if you dare;
You may say we have freedom but where is it? Where?
How often do you act on the knowledge buried and hid
Of what you know you should do, of what’s wrong and what’s good
Depending on the borders around your soul, where it’s been torn
You may have been enslaved inside one of six billion forms
But regardless of the reason and regardless of the rhyme
The great Spirit of love could sew your soul back to mine
The great Spirit of love could come to save your life
The great Spirit of love could come bearing good vibes
The spirit of rebellion, I hope, will come to save this day
But the great Spirit of love will stay